i'm brand new.. like a virgin

so welcome.. this is my first "blogging" session. i have always been a bit skeptical about this whole thing, i mean, what are you supposed to talk about that other people are going to find interesting? so i decided that i would try it out.. and if you don't find this interesting and/or entertaining then f you and i don't need you in my life (and don't worry about the fact i don't use proper capitalization, it's my own personal style.. so deal with it).

so i am graduating from college within the next month, and i am scared to death. college is just going to be, over. i've only known school, i've been in school everyday of my life since pre-school... how do you just stop going to school? i'm thinking about going to grad school, in fact i actually got in.. so now do i spend like 10k on "furthering my education" or do i decide to be a grown up and grow up, get a real job? that thought terrifies me..

i wish i could go back to the simpler times in life, when everything was just laid out in front of you. whoever decided that you should make your own choices was an idiot.

i've been watching a lot of chelsea handler lately (who btw is my freaking hero!) and i wish that i was funny. like straight up hysterical. i think it would be the coolest thing to be a stand up comedian... being able to travel the country making people laugh. that would be the best job in the world. in my opinion i think i am freaking hilarious, i just don't know if other people would appreciate my humor as well. oh well, so much for that dream. but i guess that's all it is, it's all a dream.