life

I hate learning that a friend has passed away.

I hate knowing that a friend is just, gone.

It’s not fair. To anyone.

Hurricane

Shake down you make me break
For goodness sake
I think I'm on the edge
Of something new with you
Shout out don't drown the sound
I'll drown you out
You'll never scream so loud
As I want to scream with you

Standing there with your smile blinding
Your eyes from seeing
My face as I'm dying

To figure out a girl

But she drifts so far away
I'm on her coast
So maybe I should stay
And map around your world

So don't say
"These currents are still killing me"
And you can't explain
But the wind went and pulled me into your hurricane
Into your hurricane

Stand up don't make a sound
Your ears might bleed
There are sweet fluorescent enemies
That live inside of me
The world moves faster than I knew
Not fast enough to not creep up on you
And the space we put between
So pull me under your weather patterns
Your cold fronts and the rain don't matter
Because the sun burns what I needed

So don't say
"These currents are still killing me"
And you can't explain
But the wind went and pulled you into the hurricane
Into the hurricane

You don't do it on purpose
But you make me shake
Now I count the hours 'til you wake
With your babies breath
Breathe symphonies
Come on sweet catastrophe

Well, maybe this time I can follow through
I can feel complete
Stop paying dues
Stop the rain from falling
Keep my ocean calm
This time I know nothing's wrong

So don't say
"These currents are still killing me"
And you can't explain
But the wind went and pulled me in and no,
You don't say
"These currents are still killing me"
And you can't explain
But the wind went and pulled me into your hurricane
Into your hurricane
Into your hurricane

el diablo

reds, yellows, oranges and blues

colors of more than just flames

they are the colors of destruction and chaos

colors of obsessions and heat

heat so extreme it melts the skin

the disease inside breaking through

a blister of secrets

the blister of disguise

filling voids 8/2

laurie hales anderson "speak"
stieg larsson "girl who kicked the hornets’ nest"
nic sheff “tweak”
is what i am reading

death cab for cutie “narrow stairs”
miley cyrus “can’t be tamed”
good charlotte “chronicles of life and death”
killers “day & age”
is what i am listening to

gossip girl
dexter
secret life of the american teenager
is what i am watching

as of 3/12

chelsea handler "chelsea chelsea bang bang"

bram stoker "dracula"

nicholas sparks "the last song"

mark z sanielewski "house of leaves"

is what i am reading

yellowcard "one for the kids"

carrie underwood "play on"

all time low "nothing personal"

quietdrive "when all that's left is you"

is what i am listening to

gossip girl

lost

8 simple rules

big bang theory

is what i am watching

passion

what happens when you realize you don't have passion for anything?

life becomes a surreal blur

everything moves on and it feels as though you are just standing there

i want to find something

happy brithday to you

brace yourself.

friday night: so brett has this friend, her name is melissa, she is dating this boy named zachary, it was his birthday party friday night. people in LA do things a bit differently, it's awesome. instead of the standard party, she decided to have a giant scavenger hunt for her boyfriends party.. i know what you're thinking, a scavenger hunt? what are we? 9? but it was so much freaking fun! there were three teams, the awesome red team, the blue team, and the green team. we (awesome red) started out at in n out where we got 3 of the 25 tasks accomplished.. we had to get to go cups, ask a stranger for a french fry, and eat a 4x4, which is like this burger with like 4 patties on it.. we let the boys eat that ha ha

then we ventured to a public park where we had to shotgun a beer (totally illegal) and make a human pyramid, we were able to get four boys as our base and then us three girls (me, b, and this chill chick named kat) were on top (that's what she said).

from there we wondered to like this main street area where there was a movie theater, bars, restaurants, etc... we found a very nice man (don't remember his name) who let us mummify him with two rolls of toilet paper, and let us pretend that he was famous and we were the paparazzi, two more tasks done! then we went over to the movie theater where we had to find a vampire that would bite us.. luckily we were given vampire teeth and it was the premiere of twilight, we made best friends with this chick loanna who pretended to bite britta, freaking awesome. then her and her friend did a "cheer" using a megaphone and sweet cheer moves for zach... another few tasks down.. while we were at the movie theater, we posed w alvin and his chipmunks :)

from there we hit up the bar... where i had to change pants with this boy in our group, sobe, and we had to go buy drinks.. bonus points if someone else bought you a drink.. so, i walk up to this guy named alejandro (make sure you say that with a spanish accent, sounds so much better!) and straight up ask him to buy me a drink.. he did, and picked it, long island ice tea.. basically the drink of death... then he started to get creepy and wanted to make sure that i got "faded" (his words not mine), so basically i chugged that and we were out of there! oh and i changed back into my jeans.

so from there we had to find these posters on the wall at trader joes and mimic them.. they were all of turkeys in funny poses, weightlifting, surfing, etc. then we had to play leap frog in the fountain, hoping that it wouldn't turn on! we went over to the hotel where we were able to find a brochure for rubber ducks (weird stuff, i couldn't make this up if i tried) and we had to be paid for entertaining someone.. so britta dropped it like it was hot and brett i think was beat boxing ha ha.. anyways, this nice lady gave them a dollar so that was that!

so all in all we accomplished all twenty five tasks on our to do list, sadly only like a third of what we did is on my camera.. everything else, like fluffy bunny, getting bottle caps from this other bar, and taking a picture of firemen are on other people's cameras.. hopefully they will all surface to the internet in time...