Let's Pretend

Let's pretend for just a minute...
that i actually had a plan for the rest of my life
that i actually had a boyfriend
that i liked to eat celery
that i didn't just graduate college
that i wasn't obsessed with my finances
that i was fluent in spanish
that i was taller
that i wasn't addicted to capri suns (mountain cooler only)
that i wasn't "emotionally difficult"
that i lived in south africa
that i was made out of money
that i was in shape
that i wasn't insecure
that i didn't have anxiety over everything
that i really was funny, like stand up comedian funny
that i had annoying drama
that i was going somewhere with my life
that i did get this nannying job back East

what then?